nellie. 25. bxny. likes: lots of things. dislikes: lots of other things.
September 7, 2014
August 24, 2014
I wish I was in high school so I can wear this to prom.
August 4, 2014
I know I shouldn’t be jealous of anyone but I am. Why is it I work so hard and I get no where, but there are people I know who do literally nothing for themselves and are handed everything?
I just want to give up, curl up into a ball, and cry until the end of time.
July 21, 2014
After my dad had died, I had lost the ability to read.
What I mean by that is, that I had lost the ability to sit down with a book, devour it from cover to cover and savor it like I normally would. To be fair, even before my father’s passing, I wasn’t reading as often as I had liked. But I still *read* when I could, even if it was at a slower pace then I would like (“slower paced” may be incorrect to say, more like truncated attempts rather than being able to devote my time solely to reading).
But when he died, a big chunk of my spirit went with him. And so did my reading. All of my attempts had been false starts. Even trying to read old favorites proved fruitless. The only success I had in those attempts was “All-American Girl” by Meg Cabot, which isn’t much of a challenge and I read on my phone. It didn’t even really feel like I was reading it, but rather reviewing it like notes before a test. I had read it so many times before I mostly skimming and feeling nostalgic. I would not count this as reading.
Then I found Mindy Kaling’s “Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? (And Other Concerns)” at the Strand stand on 59th and 5th. I think I actually found it awhile ago, but I never tried to read it (false start false start). Then one day, I think out of sheer boredom, and lack of a TV to entertain me (lies, I’m halfway through Breaking Bad, and want to finish it) I finally picked up Mindy’s book. I creeped along the first few pages, and finally found a groove. Not my old groove, not my fiction groove, but a groove nonetheless. I didn’t devour Mindy, I sipped upon her lightly. I didn’t think I was going to be able to finish it, but I did. Her ridiculous and hysterical stories brought back a necessary spark to me.
After Mindy was Tina (“Bossypants”) followed by Sarah (“The Bedwetter: Stories of Courage, Redemption, and Pee”) until I finally did it, this week. I was able to get through a fiction book, “The Color Purple” by Alice Walker. This was not an easy novel for me to get through, but I saw the sadness in Celie reflected in me. We both carried sorrow, if for different things. The book does not end happily, but not gloomy either. There is an air of content in which that all of the characters can reflect on the road on which they traveled on, but are at a point in which they can let go of the burden of the past and move forward. I adore that message very much.
Then, today, without notice, I was able to finish a whole novel. Granted, it’s a children’s book, but I am very pleased with myself. I finished “The Giver” by Lois Lowry. I’m still digesting it, so I don’t want to say too much. But what I can reflect upon is that out of everything I have been able to read recently, this has been my most unique selection. All of the other books I’ve read have an underlying message of female empowerment. It could be argued that there is an empowered character in “The Giver” but the circumstances are completely different then everyone else I have read through. I am proud because not only can I read again, I can read something different and not find it to be emotionally exhausting. I can finally start exploring new worlds again. This may not seem like much, but knowing that I cannot be held back by my fears or emotions is really exciting.
I want to thank all of these women - Mindy, Tina, Sarah, Alice, and Lois - for helping me through this difficult time. It may not seem like much, but I feel like I can finally see again.
July 9, 2014
new video! because all this “i’m not a feminist" business is killing my equality buzz.
New Sex+: THE F-WORD
July 3, 2014
Diane Sawyer: So, have you thought, how many women is enough? How many women [on the Supreme Court] would be enough?
Ruth Bader Ginsburg: Nine, nine. [Applause.]
Sawyer: Oh! Oh. [Laughs.]
Ginsburg: Well, there’ve been nine men there for a long long time, right? So why not nine women?
June 28, 2014
And my first repost is a Chief Keef gif.
when you walk in and the store clerk stares at you like you bout to steal
September 26, 2013
in movie theatres in brooklyn, they played the orion’s belt video before springbreakers.
where tho? I want to see it
August 19, 2013
August 18, 2013
August 14, 2013
Jessica Williams proposes applying New York’s Stop and Frisk policy to Wall Street bankers.
July 24, 2013
yall gotta watch this short vid. an 11 year old girl from yemen recounts how she fled from her parents when they tried to force her into marriage and why it’s an injustice. such articulate, brave words from such a small little lady. all the feels.
April 7, 2013
"Don’t get too wrapped up in other people’s lives and compare yours to theirs. We all have our own joy & sadness, our share of heartbreaks & happiness. Only one half of those moments tend to make it onto a Facebook wall."
- Burnie Burns (via theotherdrewy)
April 4, 2013